Love Thy Self

Oh my goodness - so many things going on in life right now:

Cancer in the family. Death of a friend. Holiday traditions. Balancing life. Shortness of funds.

I have to admit that I've been not so good of a human lately. I've been suffering depression for the past month or two - which is pretty typical for me to have long episodes- and I'm not taking any medications for it anymore since I can't stand the side effects (sleeplessness - irritability). The next thing I could do for this long but temporary dis-ease is to attend sessions with a therapist to help me work through my thoughts that are so scattered and unorganized. There is something blocking me from freely enjoying life and I've already tried to ask God in my heart to help me and all God said is to be real with everyone.

Yes. Real.

I'm sorry everyone for putting up a facade. I'm trying my best to just fit in the world despite my depression but I think I've had enough denial. To make matters worse, it's so automatic for me to withdraw into myself that I forget how much my friends and family really love me. It's hard enough to make new friends and it's easy to burn bridges with good friends. So pray for my sanity and that I try my best to restore my life this holiday season.

Thanks