Down Then Up

Things are manageable again =). I'm referring to these emotions that I go through w/ this baby hormone stuff. I was down then I'm up. I need to learn to accept these rollercoasters when they happen -- maybe also remind myself take a step back and realize that these down moments are temporary -- especially when I could rely on God during these hardships. David and I started praying together again -- and it seems to always be rough when we walk away. Duh! Anyways . . .

This past weekend was a busy one. First was my company Christmas party on Friday -- then my God-parent's traditional White Elephant Exchange on Saturday -- finally my mom's association Christmas party on Sunday.

All throughout this busy weekend seeing family friends and kids, I've been having stronger feelings of connectedness to others more than before I was pregnant. I can actually relate to my family and friends w/ children. I'm starting to develop hopes and dreams that my child will be successful as other parents hope for their children. It's an amazing feeling I'm going through. I kinda feel more grown-up since I've accepted this responsibility of raising a child.

Unfortunately, while I'm needing more support from veteran mothers to guide and prepare me for the responsibilities of motherhood, I feel like my relationships w/ my single friends is sort of fading -- and I hate to admit this. My first pregnancy is a time where I really have to rely on others and God b/c this lifestyle is entirely new -- and usually scary. I'm glad I have a few close friends to tell me that every undesireable emotion I undergo is actually very normal. One of these days I'll be able to look back and help to pull up others who would be in my situation where the whole world seems tough. I'll be able to say,

"It's just the hormones, baby!"